So I'm looking. I've been looking. I've got my 80% decision made but I'm unable to find the gun within any semblance of what I deem fair market value. So. I have ruled out the original one I wanted which is the CZ97BD. I wanted to want it. I wanted it but had to hold it before I ordered it. Found it, held it, held it some more, manipulated it. Nope, doesnt fit my hand like I want. I've got the SP01 tactial and the shadow 2 but just couldn't go for the 97BD. What I have currently decided and would have bought it if the price hadn't gone to $1299 plus ship and transfer. FN FNX-45 tactical. What I want. Truck and nightstand gun. Very limited carry to no carry. Even a bigger gun will probably conceal on my 250lb 6foot fat a$$. I've got my "carry jeans" one size up so a bit loose, got a solid gun belt, and regularly carry my CZ SP01 Tactical in an urban carry IWB single clip holster. 45acp caliber. not a 1911 as I have one. Looking for higher capacity but 10+1 will suffice. Threaded barrel with night sights (tall sights) Red dot capable. Does it have to be precut optic ready? not necessarily but I would have a machine shop with good reviews on my radar before purchase. I plan on putting a Trijicon RMR 3moa dot on it. Would like a rail for a light but not positive that will happen. I've never put a light on a gun ever but for nightstand I could see added protection. Cost?.. subjective. I haven't bought a gun in well over a year and put $30 a week aside. My goal is gun, RMR optic, 3 mags, and light possibly for around 2k. No hurry though so gun comes first and we go from there. What else is on my radar. 1. Walther PPQ. : I see walther has got into bed with a machine shop and offers side cuts "factory approved" I haven't fully researched the gun as I can't get my hands on one. Generally I've found Walthers to be very ergonomic and I am a fan of the paddle mag release. Hikok 45 has a review and a few others and it seems like the biggest "carry issue" is tha the trigger is almost to light. Need my hands on one. let me be honest... this thread is to feed my own gun enthusiast needs. Immediate family is high risk and I've only fired 6000 rounds since February last year and they were ALL shot when we went on vacation over the course of 10 days... otherwise bang silent.... We are hoping to safely return to shooting in 3 months depending on the quality of my crystal ball. Thoughts and musings appreciated. I think I'll bounce over to HK's and Sig's site for a bit.