In a thread regarding an ND a while back, I posted that if it were me, I would lock the guns up and think about whether I'd go back. I was in the minority that didn't just waive it off as something that happens and is acceptable. The fact that your attitude places your participation in the sport in check shows your regret. It would be understandable to leave. However, I agree with others who say that you're a professional, and a safe one. Whatever you do from here, no one will fault you for. But I do hope you give some serious thought to hanging onto those 50 centerfire beauties, and taking them back out again sometime in the near future. Take care, sir.