I now know why so many suicides go unheard.., undetected.
I'm assuming the sound was the slide slaming back. The report wass completely muted, like a silenced gun in the movies. Absorbed, I guess, in the cavities of the head. The sound could be mistaken for myriad things. It did not sound like a gun. It does now.
I agonized that I should have approached him, just make friendly conversation. But all the notes, all the policies and documents, told another story; this would not have been thwarted. But perhaps it could've happened on someone else's property. Or under a bridge. Further out in the swamp maybe. Not somewhere I walk past regularly.
I'm angered in many ways. The relatives - near and dear to me - are internalizing at a scary pace. It was cruel to them. Just cruel.
Me, I tear up in stores; while driving. While working.
It was a different sound. I wish I could forget it.
I'm assuming the sound was the slide slaming back. The report wass completely muted, like a silenced gun in the movies. Absorbed, I guess, in the cavities of the head. The sound could be mistaken for myriad things. It did not sound like a gun. It does now.
I agonized that I should have approached him, just make friendly conversation. But all the notes, all the policies and documents, told another story; this would not have been thwarted. But perhaps it could've happened on someone else's property. Or under a bridge. Further out in the swamp maybe. Not somewhere I walk past regularly.
I'm angered in many ways. The relatives - near and dear to me - are internalizing at a scary pace. It was cruel to them. Just cruel.
Me, I tear up in stores; while driving. While working.
It was a different sound. I wish I could forget it.