I have searched for a long time for a 9mm revolver for concealed carry, and wanted the LCR since before it even came out in that caliber. I've researched it for months, making sure that that was what I wanted and what would work for me. No LGS has had one, so when Gander Mountain just got them in, I rushed right over and got one. Well, turns out that shooting this thing just frickin HURTS! The recoil hits the knuckle in my thumb in a certain way that stops me from firing more than 3 rounds at a time because I just have to stop and wince. I've got a S&W Model 39 semi-auto and it is so easy to shoot that I had no idea shooting the same caliber in a light revolver would be so horrible. This is supposedly the heaviest snub there is, right? I've tried 115 gr., then went down to 95, and it's almost as bad. I know there's the Liberty ammo that's 50 gr., but it's +P, so I don't think it would be a good solution. Reviews are night and day on those, anyway. And even if it is tolerable, since there would be no practice ammo in that amount of grains, I don't see myself practicing with the gun like I'd need to. So that brings me to choosing something else. I'm considering the .22 magnum version, but I'm nervous about using something that underpowered for concealed carry. I know the reputable companies make self defense ammo in that caliber, but still. I love the design of the LCR and would hate to not have one. Some have said the .38 has less recoil. Maybe I should give it a try? Alternately, I may consider the SP101 in .38 special. I don't want a semi-auto, but the Bersa Thunder .380 Plus might be one I'd consider, too, just because it's a double stack. Not sure what to do. Really disappointed that this has worked out this way. Wasn't happy about spending retail price for this at Gander, either, and now I'll probably lose a lot of money if I trade it in. Advice? Anything I haven't though of?