Back before I carried every day, and I was only carrying "usually," I had a dream where I went to Stop & Shop (the supermarket). I was parked in the parking garage. It was night time, and I still remember that blue/white glow from the lamps they use in those garages. As I walked out of the store to get to my car, I was walking along where the cars would drive. I noticed a man to my right, wearing baggy jeans and a black hoodie sweatshirt with the hood up. He was matching my pace and following parralel to me, about three paces back, and 30 feet to my right. I watched him carefully, so that he would know he had been busted. I also started changing diretion to the left to to distance between myself and him. Then I caught something out of the left corner of my eyes. There were two guys about 50 feet in front of me walking towards me. and then I saw one on my also about 20-25 feet away. I knew they had me surrounded and the only way i even had a chance was to stand my ground. I dropped the groceries and took up a fighting stance. I wanted to be brave and menacing looking, but I was scared sh*tless and couldn't hide it. The whole time I was thinking "Why, of all times, did I not pack my SP101 on me now, when I need it most?" I woke up as they began to charge me. I was really frightened. It made me rethink my position, and how I would deal with such a situation. I also keep a CCW on me, and readily available every single time I leave the house. The dream was so realistic that it forced me to realize how quickly I might need it, and how much I NEED to keep it on me. It also was humbling because instead of being the brave "you may take me out, but I will kill at least one of you first" kinda guy that I thought I could be, I was terrified. I don't know how it would have played out had I stayed asleep long enough for them to attack me, and perhaps I woud have pulled through. But at that point, I hadn't.
I am embarrassed, but there you have it.