i let you all down

[johnchamp]

im sorry i let you all down today would have been a week without drinking. today is my birthday no exhuse i let you all down please dont hate me tomorow is another day. i wont let you down, im only human and i need to fight this disease.

 

[SundownRider]

The reason we fall down is so we learn how to get up again. Keep trying, you'll make it if you have faith.

 

[armoredman]

Get help, you can do it. AA is there for a reason, and they can help. YOU DON'T HAVE TO FIGHT IT ALONE!

 

[jhco]

Stay strong. I'm 23 and was a very heavy drinker until this past April when I decided to quit. I haven't had a drink since then and not a day goes by that I don't think about how good Jack Daniels taste but I also think about how good it feels not to be hungover 5 days a week. I can't say that I will go the rest of my life with out ever drinking again but for now I just wanted to get the habit under control.

 

[2RCO]

jchampagne

No one is perfect just keep trying. AA might not be a bad call as well. Also find friends that support making you a better person rather than supporting your bad habits.

 

[eatont9999]

I fully understand your pain. I often find myself numbing the pains of my life and physical body with alcohol. It is a medicine and a poison; as the song goes. You need to make sure you are not drinking during work or wanting to drink during the day. If that is the case, you are using alcohol as a crutch. That is not good. A drink now and then in moderation is fine. It is normal. However, you should not be getting jacked in the middle of the day all day and every day. That says there is a big problem and you should attend AA. In the mean time, keep trying to distance yourself from drinking more than a few times a week. I understand going out with your buds on the weekend. I went to college for a while...I know. Try to keep your mind occupied. Rent a movie a night or do some yard work or chores. Anything that keeps you away from a bottle. Go shooting more often. I would rather shoot than stay home alone plastered! You should be able to do this on your own if you nip it in the butt early enough. But, if you feel overwhelmed, please go to an AA meeting. They can be a lot of help, even if you think you can do it on your own.

 

[Wayne G.]

If nothing changes, nothing changes. If you continue to do what you've always done, you'll continue to get what you've always gotten.

Powerlessness is defined by loss of control. If you swear you're not going to drink again, and you drink again anyway, you have lost the power to choose.

Help is available. PM me for more info.

 

[myjudge45410]

I don't know how bad your drinking is, but you can stop. I drank a 12 pack of Bud everynight for years and on weekends I really drank. I got sick pancreatitis (sp?) the doctor told me he thought it was the drinking, I told him I guit, He laughed a little that was 14 or 15 years ago. It can be done, some people can do it alone, some people need a little help, do what is needed. I can only guess where I would be now if I hadn't guit, but I do know I am at better point in my life because I did. Be strong brother!

 

[704338]

If there weren't bumps in the roads, there would be no use in new tires. Things happen. You learn from those things and the only time you should have regret is when you don't see the wrong in those actions you've committed. Recovery isn't a one way street, but I'm not encouraging failure. Just that you learn from it and understand that, that road is a two-lane and as long you reach your destination who cares about the hiccups in the end.

I hope that helped. Let me know if you need anything.

 

[rondog]

Good luck to you, you can do it! My wife is 54, and she was a heavy vodka drinker for nearly 30 years. I mean LOTS of vodka! But around last Thanksgiving, she had an "enlightenment" of sorts, and checked into a rehab Jan. 2nd.

That was very expensive, but she stuck it out for the 30 days, and she's been bone dry ever since. I know, it hasn't been a year yet, but I'm proud of her and our lives have been much more peaceful. She does the AA meetings twice a week.

Now, if she'd just give up the damn cigarettes before she coughs up a lung.....

 

[BHP FAN]

Good for her![and you] God Bless.

 

[Valkman]

You can do it - I've been "dry" for 20 years this month. It is very difficult in the beginning, and the only way to fight it is minute by minute and hour by hour. After a while it will be day by day and now I never seriously think of drinking. Find a AA group you're comfortable with and go to the meetings - most find them helpful.

 

[JohnKSa]

An internet forum is not a good substitute for a support group. You need people who see you in person on a regular and frequent basis.

 

[ThrottleJockey72]

You didn't let us down, you let yourself down. You can't quit because other people want you too. It is something you must do for yourself. I once had trouble with drugs and alcohol, but once I made the choice to quit, it was of my own free accord and was remarkably simple to do. I went from 8 years of cocaine and meth abuse, even living on park benches at times to what I am today. I searched for a long time to find my reason, but when I found the right one, it was cold turkey. I love my son, his birth showed me what I needed to see to find my reason. I've been clean now for a little over 10 years.

 

[503glock]

open your phone book and call man aa can help i have seen it help a dear friend

 

[bikerdoc]

More tough love from your brother,

You didnt let us down, you let yourself down. We understand. As stated above we have fought the problem. We have stumbled and got back on track, thats what counts. you need to get on the other side of you problem. Go to AA.

You had 7 days sober on your own. Do you know how cool that is? Do you know how hard it was? Of course you do!
We are here for you but a keyboard is not a subtitute for AA. Real people within reach with real support.
Remember, One minute, hour, day, at a time.
BTW, Happy Birthday, Mine is tomorrow. We leo's can be difficult(wink)
Good luck.

 

[jn1965]

I agree with what the guys said. You have gone a week and you know you can do it again. You just have to screw your courage to the sticking point and take control over the urge to drink. This is where AA can help.

Please go to a meeting. Don't beat yourself up over a mistake, and please do not touch a firearm until you are completely sober again. We do not want to lose you to any mishaps...

 

[Ex-MA Hole]

Go to an AA group, they will help you.

Don't look at what you did as falling off the wagon. You just got back on it today.

- Mark, 6 years on August 3rd.

 

[Prion]

You only let yourself down. "To thine own self be true" as the AA saying goes. You must truly want to quit solely for your own spiritual well-being. I'm not talking God or morals here....spirituality as you understand it. The fellowship of AA is a wonderful place and a truly amazing experience. It is not religious, a cult, etc. It is a fellowship in the most democratic of ways. No religious or political affiliations, no bosses, no leaders, no dues or fees, only friends. The hand of AA will always there for you, I reached out for it and it was the greatest decision of my life. Best wishes with whatever you decide to do.

Congrats ex MA Hole that is wonderful!

 

[GodGuns&Guitars]

It's not how you fall, but how you pick yourself up that counts. God never promised us a smooth flight just a safe landing.

 

[outdoors]

jchampagne--i would suggest a book from allan carr called "the easy way"

http://www.stevepavlina.com/forums/health-fitness/9579-easy-way-stop-drinking.html

this is a very effective book and is an easy read.

 

[rodensouth]

Please don't beat yourself up when you slip. You made it a week my friend, and that is no small task. Just think long and hard about how badly you will feel the next day when the monkey starts tappin on your shoulder. We are all pulling for you, and you didn't let us down.

 

[BullfrogKen]

An internet forum is not a good substitute for a support group. You need people who see you in person on a regular and frequent basis.

Agreed. Find a support group. You're very unlikely to get through this fight alone. Support groups exist for a reason, and that model has the most successful of any track record for getting people straight and sober.


There are many people who continue to attend AA support group meetings long after they had their last drink. If they couldn't do it alone, what makes you think you're able to?


Go to a meeting.

 

[Walkalong]

Go to an AA group, they will help you.

Don't look at what you did as falling off the wagon. You just got back on it today.

Ditto. AA is by far the best thing going for someone who wants to stop drinking. It works. I have seen it first hand with relatives. If you want to quit, and will work the 12 steps, it works. It is not easy, but it works.

 

[3pairs12]

jchampagne,
You have not let me down. In fact I am impressed to be reading this thread considering some of the tests you have been through lately. You recognized that you have a problem and you are doing something about it. I was concerned as much of us were, about you for quite some time. You have seemed to really stepped it up and thats good. Tomorrow is another day is a good attitude to have it shows signs determination. However, I think when dealing with any kind of problem we need to do what can today, not think about tomorrow. You are doing good, you are trying hard and you will get there. You will hit road blocks just remember all you have to do is get through today. I am proud of you bud keep it up.