my gun is never (except for hospital and dr office or anywhere else ccw regulations prohibit it) more than an arms length away. at night, it is under my pillow, during the day, in my pocket and or in my waist band. do i feel safe at home, sure. but, i am disabled, if somebody was trying to force his way in, harm my children, etc. i wouldn't be able to put up much of a fight. so, my only option would be to defend ourselves in the only other manner i can. hopefully, this will NEVER happen. but if it does, i will not let somebody grab my kids and do untold horrific things to them. this is NOT to say i am trigger happy. i am very much aware of the fact that in the course of taking someone elses life, i may end up with signifigant mental anguish. but if i am FORCED into doing this, i would rather deal with that guilt, than deal with the guilt of doing nothing while my kids are raped/mutilated/killed/etc. etc. I WILL DEFEND THEM, TO MY DEATH if necessary.