Okay so, I'll explain. I really don't want my peers on this forum to think I'm a prick of a grandkid. First if all, I appreciate your work. My mother did home health , and is an LTAC charge nurse in geriatrics.
When I said " as soon as he dies ", it's not impatience. You see, my family has been plagued by spontaneous death. My uncle, my other uncle,my other uncle.. I'm Mexican, if you can't tell.
But because if this fact, we've all gotten accustomed to the idea if "well, if I die today I'd better make it count". Since I can remember, my mother and grandmother, and every single member of my mother's side of the family have been telling me about how they want to die, and what they want me to have. My grandmother wants me to have her lifelong stamp collection, so on and so forth. The idea of dying isn't taboo, it's something we almost talk and joke about on a daily. To such and extent , when we say our goodbyes, we always start with "Si Dios me presta vida". (If God lends me life). Dying is just natural to us, I guess.
In the case of my grandad, he's terribly ill. He is going to die , and soon. He's made his peace with it, he is okay with it. As much I love the old man, I understand that there's nothing I can do to prevent his death, and I too have made my peace. Instead of breaking down in tears when he does indeed pass away, I'd rather go outside, have a smoke and reminisce all the cool things we did in my youth. Three Rivers, the "expeditions" to find Villa's gold, and so much more.
Me saying "as soon as he dies " was very callous, and I should have kept in mind that my family is the exception, and not the rule. But in my day to day, talking about death and dying is so normal that it just doesn't faze me anymore.
Yeah, he's a sarcastic prick who calls my taste in guns trash and my leather working hobby obsolete because if kydex, but this is also the man who taught me how to clean a carburetor and change my oil. I love him to bits, and I can understand why y'all would think otherwise. I don't want him to die, but I'm at peace with it. Besides, be paid for a buffet, open bar and jazz band for his funeral. He clearly wants me to be excited about it.
To keep this gun related, here's my great grandad's-now-mine Marlin 60.
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As you can see, I've replaced all the broken bits ,and somehow managed to keep the blue relatively okay.