I've come to a point that I must base my life on that which I know to be true: and that which can be proven by empirical evidences: as that which is based on sound principles derived from my own and other's personal experiences as fact. Doctors told me the jig is up, that my medical condition was untreatable & terminal. After the first terminal illness and diagnosis I was soon informed of the second! After that it was discovered that 2 more unrelated medical conditions could cause instantaneous departure, and then another series of events revealed another ongoing condition indicating I might die at any moment with no warning. This started in 2002.
At the first my general condition deteriorated fairly rapidly, then dove off the side of a cliff. It looked like much sooner than later. I continued to pray, and not only that, but to fully and completely BELIEVE in that which I prayed to, as being Sufficient in all things in every way. My condition got worse until all I could do was lay in bed or sit in my chair at my computer, barely able to move between the two. At that time all I could fully comprehend in the entire world was written on a plaque on my wall above me, made by a very famous artist friend. It is a brass frame about 1' x 2', holding a copper plate, upon which are suspended ornate antique gothic letters in gold, those standing out about 1/2" from the copper. There are but two words there: 'I BELIEVE'.
It was all I knew for a fact in the entire universe, coming to know it even better than my own identity. It was enough, always Sufficient, and that is the key. Over the last 4 years, instead of plummeting downhill, I have now turned round and steadily improved, arriving at a level that now is better than when I was first diagnosed! In addition I have now arrived at a level of BELIVE that is far beyond that when I first BELIEVED. The Great Physician has been busily at work healing while my earthly physicians have treated my symptoms. I also believe in those earthbound doctors to treat our ills: as being the ones appointed to that in the Grand Plan of the Ages.
Now my doctors here say I need an operation, and I will do that, because I believe in their deep medical knowledge based on their combined centuries of experience. Along with that I will continue to BELIEVE in One who will see me through all things, in peace of mind and surety of heart: because He has since the beginning and continues to every ticking instant, by verifiable proofs that here I sit, and think, and write, and continue to Live. Again, thereby is the Substance of those things hoped for, and the Evidence of things not seen: that to Live and BELIEVE is Sufficient to my heart, mind, soul and spirit in life. So may it be for you.
Could it be that actually it is all an experience and life lesson to heal the state of belief, to raise it up to BELIEVE? Interesting thought, well worth searching out. Darkness is only the absence of Light. My heart is not troubled and my soul is at ease with my future ever secure, in that which is Sufficient beyond all measure: I BELIEVE, and therein lies my Hope.
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Life now is a precious commodity and STUFF does not mean much any more. I now live every day as it will be my last on earth and go to bed happy with the results. DO NOT EVER let ANYONE tell you how it is going to be with your life. As long as you can take a breath there are still options. Your possessions can be sold by a person hired and hand picked by you to do the job and funds distributed as wanted at a later date. Donate some to the NRA possibly? This will free you to attend to the important matters at hand. PM me if you want to discuss any of this further. My prayers are with you sir. Think LONG AND HARD before you act. Remember the experts become experts by learning from us---you can teach them. I will move on only when I am ready. I am still trying to take what I want with me however.
