Eric:
Last year I fell off a roof, shattering my spine, bone fragments through my spinal cord, pelvis crushed & powdered against my spine, tendons cut in my hand, fractured sternum and a 10 day wait for surgery with a 20% chance of failure, which would have been a death sentence even if I woke up, as I would not live as a paraplegic.
Six weeks later I was back on a roof.
17 years ago I was in a major car crash, fell 30 feet onto rocks and crushed a vertebrae.
Two days later I drove again.
I guess the point I'm trying to make is that you can let a traumatic or painful incident rule you, or you can decide not to be mentally affected by it.
Obviously you will have to deal with the physical effects, just as I am. I wear a back brace to get around and I'll never compete at the national or international level again in IPSC. But I am not dead, I'm still able to work, drive, climb on a roof and shoot.
At this point you are mentally shook up and in physical pain, along with suffering the effects of drugs. All will be effecting your outlook on life in a negative fashion. I've never met a person who has had a close friendship end who was happy afterwards. I've never met anyone in major pain who was happy. And I've never met anyone on drugs who was mentally 100% with it - after I stopped taking pain killers my sense of humour returned. Anyone facing losing their job tends to be distressed or depressed.
At the moment you have all of the above destabilising your life.
For the time being I would put the guns away anyway. Get well, get through the legal issues, sort out your employment and get any related bills paid off. Review your friendship at a time where you can look at it objectively. Maybe it is time to call it quits or maybe you will be able to give it a second chance.
When you have your life centered again, then review your gun ownership. It may be that you will decide to take a new road in life where they will just be a responsibility you no longer want. Or you may be just as happy to continue as you were.
Regardless, I wish you good luck in the future. I hope you heal quickly and that everything else sorts out to your satisfaction.